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Dec. 23rd, 2018 07:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeLast night I didn't sleep well. I could not tell if it was anxiety or if it was BP...or if it was anxiety over BP? I haven't a clue.
It's funny. The Aunties that I had over for dinner took the time to tell me I was a good daughter... but I believe a smart daughter or a rich daughter is needed as II just can't do all that is needed. I do reach out for help...but it falls on deaf ears.
Today I went over to the cousins, we did not do ceramics, but I went because I wanted to make sure the older aunts had the items that they made for presents. I had a feeling that my Mother's brother would show up at some point. I found out from My Mother's Texas Brother that the other's brother's wife (my aunt) had knee surgery Wednesday and that she was in rehab. II wrapped the snowman I made for them and put it in the car just incase I saw the Uncle. He was just leaving as we pulled up. Dad beeped the horn and I waved, but my Uncle did not stop. I got out of the car and waived him down. It felt like he really couldn't be bothered stopping. Sigh. I gave him the gift and asked about the aunt... Funny, I feel that if I don't exist then to them my Mom didn't die.
My Mother's family doesn't talk about her at all. Funny, when their Dad died he became a saint.
My aunts on my Dad's side talk about my Mother...and good memories. People say that is more normal. I am not sure, but it makes me feel better.
It's funny. The Aunties that I had over for dinner took the time to tell me I was a good daughter... but I believe a smart daughter or a rich daughter is needed as II just can't do all that is needed. I do reach out for help...but it falls on deaf ears.
Today I went over to the cousins, we did not do ceramics, but I went because I wanted to make sure the older aunts had the items that they made for presents. I had a feeling that my Mother's brother would show up at some point. I found out from My Mother's Texas Brother that the other's brother's wife (my aunt) had knee surgery Wednesday and that she was in rehab. II wrapped the snowman I made for them and put it in the car just incase I saw the Uncle. He was just leaving as we pulled up. Dad beeped the horn and I waved, but my Uncle did not stop. I got out of the car and waived him down. It felt like he really couldn't be bothered stopping. Sigh. I gave him the gift and asked about the aunt... Funny, I feel that if I don't exist then to them my Mom didn't die.
My Mother's family doesn't talk about her at all. Funny, when their Dad died he became a saint.
My aunts on my Dad's side talk about my Mother...and good memories. People say that is more normal. I am not sure, but it makes me feel better.
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Date: 2018-12-24 08:06 pm (UTC)Sometimes there's nothing quite as strange as the behaviour of family. Who knows what goes on in some minds?
Have a lovely Christmas day whatever you are doing. x
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Date: 2019-01-03 02:49 am (UTC)Yes, that's more what I'm used to, that people try to remember the good times.
And I'm glad that it makes you feel better. *Hugs*