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[ravena_kade]

Having Mom thoughts and guilt... last year this tie was 12 days of pure HELL... I have never felt such pain... and frankly, what ever faith I had in traditional faith... died a screaming tortured death too...

Frankly I need to purge some of the dark before I can find some sort of spirituality... I have been searching, but nothing comes... well except whenI garden... There is a muse there. The jewelry muse does nibble... I feel her.

Today is Dad's 75th...that is triggering the Mom thoughts. Last year we said we would have cake with her when she came home....

I have planned a dinner with the cousins for Dad, but since he wanted a casino weekend this weekend we will do that next weekend... Ma was NOT a party person so he never had a 50, 60, or 70th birthday party.

I have a photo gig at a tarp in Charlton. I am a tad nervous about night photos, but I know I can do good in the day. I am looking forward to being with folks having fun. I head out tomorrow.

Comments

[malterre]

Hey if you want help with organizing a party we know some folks you get that *points at self and Frank*

I know it's hard.

[ravena_kade]

Thank you.

This year it's a tad low key...restaurant.... we are finishing up the year of firsts with the birthday...

[chris_warrior]

we're going to have fun. i don't know anyone who is naturally great with night photos, but all we can do is our best. i just hope we're a great distraction! but now i know to keep you away from the scene i'm doing in the morning with one of the other characters!

[ravena_kade]

Oh, don't worry about the scene... There are 2 things that keep me in the "right here...right now" brain and one is photography. With a camera I will be fine...I think of photography as a type of hunt...so the brain is fully occupied.

[gwendraith]

Having Mom thoughts and guilt... last year this tie was 12 days of pure HELL
*Hugs*. I do hope that the next year will be easier for you.

[guy_todd]

I am sorry you are still feeling all that horror :(. I hope some time at The Commons will help. {{hugs}}

[brickhousewench]

I hope the larp was fun.

And I know it's a rough time of the year. Maybe try to focus on good memories so that's what's in your brain?

*Hugs*