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Feb. 21st, 2025 08:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeI am in a mood.
The cold, wind, and ice are making it so I can't get out. This time of year gets me grumpy.
I had a friend from out of state check on me. I told him about the death of a cousin, the stroke of another cousin and all the tests that Dad has done and my dealing with the hospital and stuff. He said I was strong. I said that I am tired of being strong... and doing for everyone else. I need to carve out time to make sure I dont stroke out.
Today I was paying invoices. I noticed the payroll that I send to the hospital HR was high, but we pay in arrears so it was for January and there were 3 payrolls for January. The boss asked me to split the payment from the regular salary account and the salary accrual expense account. I made the mistake of asking why....just so I know what to expect in the future, etc. I say mistake because her answer PISSED me off. She said that the extra $20,000 was her bonus. This drained the money in the accrual account. I am not a good bookkeeper because I let this get to me. It drained the account. That meant that the staff got NOTHING from the bonus pool. NOTHING (The office manager trainee got a $2 raise an hour to keep her because she bought a house in Rhode Island and commutes in... The boss told me this last week) I know I didn't get anything because her lack of training isn't helping. She keeps saying that I am not good and I don't know anything. But the job is strategic for Dad, even if I am poor. She has the nerve to say it's her bonus. She should have said it was bonuses. I would have been fine. In the past she has said that she really can't give money to the staff and that raises come from the board. The board doesn't see what the staff does. Now I know that she makes good investments. I know that she would get a bonus because the board likes her. But all of the money? All? While most of her staff are terrified of being deported by ICE.
I know I should not be upset, but I am.
The cold, wind, and ice are making it so I can't get out. This time of year gets me grumpy.
I had a friend from out of state check on me. I told him about the death of a cousin, the stroke of another cousin and all the tests that Dad has done and my dealing with the hospital and stuff. He said I was strong. I said that I am tired of being strong... and doing for everyone else. I need to carve out time to make sure I dont stroke out.
Today I was paying invoices. I noticed the payroll that I send to the hospital HR was high, but we pay in arrears so it was for January and there were 3 payrolls for January. The boss asked me to split the payment from the regular salary account and the salary accrual expense account. I made the mistake of asking why....just so I know what to expect in the future, etc. I say mistake because her answer PISSED me off. She said that the extra $20,000 was her bonus. This drained the money in the accrual account. I am not a good bookkeeper because I let this get to me. It drained the account. That meant that the staff got NOTHING from the bonus pool. NOTHING (The office manager trainee got a $2 raise an hour to keep her because she bought a house in Rhode Island and commutes in... The boss told me this last week) I know I didn't get anything because her lack of training isn't helping. She keeps saying that I am not good and I don't know anything. But the job is strategic for Dad, even if I am poor. She has the nerve to say it's her bonus. She should have said it was bonuses. I would have been fine. In the past she has said that she really can't give money to the staff and that raises come from the board. The board doesn't see what the staff does. Now I know that she makes good investments. I know that she would get a bonus because the board likes her. But all of the money? All? While most of her staff are terrified of being deported by ICE.
I know I should not be upset, but I am.
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Date: 2025-02-22 02:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-02-22 12:09 pm (UTC)I want to just walk, but at 60 I think it will be the same no matter where I go since all I really want to do is work a ceramics shop and paint.
If she has't got the balls to fire the new guy, I think she is really hesitant to let me go, but for 20K I should be independent by now.
Monday I wanted to look at something that is causing errors. She says yes, but she is only in the office just a couple hours as she has an 11 AM dentist appointment. All of her Doctors are in Boston so she only sees them on office days...so she cuts her time short...and still gets 20K.
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Date: 2025-02-22 02:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-02-22 03:23 pm (UTC)I can totally understand that. :o
We are getting teased starting this weekend. Highs in the mid 40s for a few days. :o :o :o
Hugs, Jon
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Date: 2025-02-22 03:27 pm (UTC)Yes, I wish you could sit back and feel like you could take care of yourself. You deserve it.
Hugs, H
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Date: 2025-02-24 09:28 pm (UTC)