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[ravena_kade]

This weekend I had my first craft show with my friend who owns the ceramic shop. Originally it was from 10 to 3. Fine. Then it changed from 10 to 5:30 because the priest of the church next door felt that people would come after the 4 O'clock Service. This meant that my friend had to leave early so she could play music at her church's 4 O'clock Mass. Okay I can breakdown and she can come get her stuff. Then I find out that she has a funeral at 10:30 to play at so we have to set up Friday night and she is a no show until noon on Saturday. She didn't show up until 1 and then left at 3:15. She didn't come back until 6:30 because she drove people home after church. REALLY. I was put out. WTF. The good was that I had some nice interactions. That and I sold 2 of my biggest items. a tree and a stack of snowmen. Both were bought by other vendors and I know that they will enjoy them. All the Dad hospital visits are getting on my nerves and now have started getting me in trouble with the boss. I have 5 appointments between now and 11/14. One is even on the holiday where I will have to go in to work with him and then go to the hospital. I am unhappy about it. Today he made some stupid voting comment and I told him that he apparently is a selfish twat and many days I just can't figure out why I bother taking care of hime when he care so little about my well being. I'm doing everything, giving up everything and he cares only about work. If he brought in enough to pay for everything I would ignore him, but now I have to cover the utilities because his meds are so expensive and he wast to f everything up by eating shit food. I asked for some help with anything around the house. He just shrugs his shoulders. I asked by sister for help...she just says do the best you can. Somedays I feel that is worse than not saying anything. Im not even sure I want to talk to her anymore. I haven't told her that he has a version of TB. Sunday was the Animal Shelter Banquet. Its was the 25th anniversary. I have been there 25 years. I was not honored because they could not find my application. Someone said that maybe next year...I said that I won't be here. The shelter is moving to a place up on theist of an old Quarry. There is no public transportation there. It would be a 45 minute walk from the train station. That and the last quarter of a mile is up a steep incline that is hard for cars to drive up in the rain or snow so it would be impossible for me to walk. I am beginning to wonder who I will be when I am not a caregiver and I ditch the family.

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[fbhjr]

Mine did that to me too.
I think it has to do with the editor. I had to update mine and post it again.

[disneydream06]

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

I am so sorry, but I know how you are feeling.
Family can be so worthless when it comes to care giving. :( :( :(
I wish there was something I could do to help you out.
HUGS, Jon

[chris_warrior]

I am beginning to wonder who I will be when I am not a caregiver and I ditch the family.

this. i'm in shock, just sitting here wondering what the hell to do. my mom doesn't seem to get how i feel doing all this and not even being on the deed to the house. wondering if it would be smarter to start looking at Canada earlier. i never saw this level of misogyny coming, but i guess i probably should have. i wonder if we'd be here if Walz had been the top of the ticket.