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Jan. 28th, 2024 09:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeSomeone I follow on line (following since my Mom was sick and passed) had a mental heath crisis and in her words was save by her kid. Her kid is a young adult and has had issues so they recognized it, dialed the phone and said to their Mother...Here is help.
I recognized many of the symptoms. Work, Dad, relatives had me in that place....melting down, angry, exhausted, and many things in between. Te first month of lay off put me back on track and sleep is now a thing. Somedays I think too much, but I haven't really slept since August 2016. I am not screaming. I am not melting. I still have that I have so much to do that I can't do anything paralysis, but I am working on that.
My goal with the new job is to not get where I was at the old job and with Dad's medical crap. I have come to terms that I have done all I can... if he goes because he ate crap food there is nothing I can do. I know I need 6 to 7 hours of sleep for my brain. I know I need to eat food I like so I stop grazing after dinner. I need to get out and move. Between the pandemic/work from home and hospital crap I haven't been moving. I need that
Now I just need the offer to come in. I have a bit of anxiety that they won't offer me my minimum. I hear that a background check can take between 3 to 5 days. Not sure if that got started Wednesday or Thursday. I also need a physical.
There s a part of me that wants to start on Feb 5, but that may be too soon. If that can't happen id like to start the 19th. This is after the holiday. The hospital makes you earn holiday time so I won't get paid for the day. The PTO here is very entry level. It will be okay for a bit as my plan is to save up for a kitchen so I need to curb my spending and save a bit more than what I have from the severance. I figure I can pay off a couple of high bills and use that money to go into the kitchen fund.
I recognized many of the symptoms. Work, Dad, relatives had me in that place....melting down, angry, exhausted, and many things in between. Te first month of lay off put me back on track and sleep is now a thing. Somedays I think too much, but I haven't really slept since August 2016. I am not screaming. I am not melting. I still have that I have so much to do that I can't do anything paralysis, but I am working on that.
My goal with the new job is to not get where I was at the old job and with Dad's medical crap. I have come to terms that I have done all I can... if he goes because he ate crap food there is nothing I can do. I know I need 6 to 7 hours of sleep for my brain. I know I need to eat food I like so I stop grazing after dinner. I need to get out and move. Between the pandemic/work from home and hospital crap I haven't been moving. I need that
Now I just need the offer to come in. I have a bit of anxiety that they won't offer me my minimum. I hear that a background check can take between 3 to 5 days. Not sure if that got started Wednesday or Thursday. I also need a physical.
There s a part of me that wants to start on Feb 5, but that may be too soon. If that can't happen id like to start the 19th. This is after the holiday. The hospital makes you earn holiday time so I won't get paid for the day. The PTO here is very entry level. It will be okay for a bit as my plan is to save up for a kitchen so I need to curb my spending and save a bit more than what I have from the severance. I figure I can pay off a couple of high bills and use that money to go into the kitchen fund.
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Date: 2024-01-29 07:54 pm (UTC)wow. i felt this.
just sending you huge hugs, hon. i hope the offer comes in soon, and that's it's enough to keep your standard of living intact. <3
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Date: 2024-01-29 09:06 pm (UTC)The sleep I have been getting makes a huge difference.
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Date: 2024-01-30 10:27 am (UTC)HUGS, Jon