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Oct. 21st, 2023 09:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeToday is the anniversary of Dad's open heart surgery.
Dad gained 10 ounces overnight. He had a Dr appointment yesterday and I noted weight gain everyday. I cant tell if he has fluid or not. The doc checked and said that he only had a bit. His procedure is in 3 weeks and it should help... but this is what heart failure is about. She told to increase his fluid pill. If its not fluid then he is putting back on regular weigh. Not a big deal but he is very short of breath. I am anxious.
My sister headed home this morning. She is planning on seeding Dad in North Carolina in April.
Did my first craft show today with my friend with the ceramic shop. Only sold a $15 snowman. I still had fun. I enjoy craft shows and art shows.
Dad showed up at lunch time to say that I didn't make him lunch...oi. He was out of breath and his lips were pale. It annoyed me to be pulled out of what I was doing and with being with my friend, but I was concerned. He then tells me he was invited to bingo with the cousins... ummm...I thought you didnt feel strong enough????
It's now after 9 PM and I call to see where he is and he is at a party with the cousins... yeah...im here worried about everything and he's at a party. Bah.
I am stressed out and overwhelmed. Im trying to deal with the lay off and finding jobs but Dad is getting less stable. He has a procedure on Nov 9 and will need to be home for a week... and then he will have follow ups if it goes well... and then there is a cardiologist appointment on 12/1 and another in January.
I saw a job at Arbella insurance that I want to apply for because they have been voted one of the best places to work in my area. I have anxiety that if something comes of the application it will be right when Dad has his procedure. I know there is nothing to do about it as I need a job. I just find it infuriating that I have to take jobs that I dont want to keep the house going and to keep his needs in mind... but he's out at a party. But then I could just be an idiot in thinking that I would get a response without any networking.
I feel like an idiot for not minding the lay off, but not anticipating that Dad would get more fragile.
Tomorrow I will need to write a cover letter and tweak my resume for this.
Dad gained 10 ounces overnight. He had a Dr appointment yesterday and I noted weight gain everyday. I cant tell if he has fluid or not. The doc checked and said that he only had a bit. His procedure is in 3 weeks and it should help... but this is what heart failure is about. She told to increase his fluid pill. If its not fluid then he is putting back on regular weigh. Not a big deal but he is very short of breath. I am anxious.
My sister headed home this morning. She is planning on seeding Dad in North Carolina in April.
Did my first craft show today with my friend with the ceramic shop. Only sold a $15 snowman. I still had fun. I enjoy craft shows and art shows.
Dad showed up at lunch time to say that I didn't make him lunch...oi. He was out of breath and his lips were pale. It annoyed me to be pulled out of what I was doing and with being with my friend, but I was concerned. He then tells me he was invited to bingo with the cousins... ummm...I thought you didnt feel strong enough????
It's now after 9 PM and I call to see where he is and he is at a party with the cousins... yeah...im here worried about everything and he's at a party. Bah.
I am stressed out and overwhelmed. Im trying to deal with the lay off and finding jobs but Dad is getting less stable. He has a procedure on Nov 9 and will need to be home for a week... and then he will have follow ups if it goes well... and then there is a cardiologist appointment on 12/1 and another in January.
I saw a job at Arbella insurance that I want to apply for because they have been voted one of the best places to work in my area. I have anxiety that if something comes of the application it will be right when Dad has his procedure. I know there is nothing to do about it as I need a job. I just find it infuriating that I have to take jobs that I dont want to keep the house going and to keep his needs in mind... but he's out at a party. But then I could just be an idiot in thinking that I would get a response without any networking.
I feel like an idiot for not minding the lay off, but not anticipating that Dad would get more fragile.
Tomorrow I will need to write a cover letter and tweak my resume for this.
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Date: 2023-10-22 02:14 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-10-22 11:25 pm (UTC)I am keeping good thoughts for you and for your dad.
I hope you get good news from one of your applications soon. :)
HUGS, Jon
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Date: 2023-10-23 07:32 pm (UTC)Your cousins can go take a long walk off a short pier with that BS advice/opinions