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[ravena_kade]

I had a melt down in the office and walked out.

Of course its work from at home day and the office is my kitchen... but I would have done it if I were in the office too.

I texted the team lead and the boss saying that many of my accounts were not working because of a system error last night and that i was frustrated and need to clear my head. I shut off the computer and went outside for an hour to the beach.

If I were in the office I would have walked that beach to where my Mother is. Her bench on the beach.

I am stressed and exhausted and have had it. I told the team lead that if we were not so short staffed I would take off for the day. My mental health is being pushed with the stuff at home. I cant relax and I start work at 4 AM and I am not doing okay at all.

Tonight I need to get the house okay for the inspection tomorrow. And dont you know the boss schedules a meeting for for the inspection person is supposed to get here. Im hoping the ditz is late, but since I need her to be she wont.

Part of it is that I am not in a van heading to the barrier beach in North Carolina to see the ponies and walk the beach. I am not MAD per se... I know not going was right because Dad is too fragile now. Even if he went the place is not near any hospital I would want him in if he flops. I am depressed that I could not go. I am mourning the trip.

I need my May vacation. I am loosing it.

Comments

[guy_todd]

I have added your boss and the inspection person to my list. *hugs* :(

[fbhjr]

It is sad you are missing this vacation. I certainly hope you can get away for some time later.

And, I think you totally deserved some time at the beach today.

[disneydream06]

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

I know it doesn't help, but I do feel your pain.
I am so tired of adulting.

HUGS, Jon

[gwendraith]

*hugs* I do hope you can get some time away by yourself soon. I know you are on your last legs and need the break.

[malterre]

Jesus on a Pogo stick-how has that bank not been shut down by now?
I hope you get some peace soon.

[brickhousewench]

*hugs*

[chris_warrior]

i'm glad you did beach time, and so sorry that you're having to put life on a bit of a hold now with traveling. i sort of know how it feels. wishing i could whack your job with a stick and somehow fix it.

~c