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Jan. 11th, 2023 04:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeThe last few days I have been feeling exhausted. I finish cooking dinner and I sit in my chair in the dark. I think it is stress.
The boss sent out the 2023 vacation request forms. I am upset that I cant go on the beach house trip with the cousins. I was surprised at how upset I was when I had to NOT request the time. It's just to long to be away without Dad having any support at all. I will find something to do.
The boss asked me how my Dad was. I said he seems to be okay but I am having a hard time getting him to understand how sodium effects the heart failure and getting him to eat healthy. It's stressful. She said to let him do what he wants. I said but he could die. She said So..we all die. I was offended by that. I know what she means... but I had to let my Mother die. Im not over that. If she wasn't the boss I would have continued the conversation...but I was upset and it would not have gotten me anywhere.
Some of my experiments in low sodium have been on the fail side. Its hard as I am cooking food I don't want to eat but Im too tired to cook someone thing else. I think I need to find some stews or make spaghetti on days that I work at the office as I am just not into cooking when I come in.
This week is 3 doctor appointments. Monday was the pacemaker doc. He said Dad was good and was surprised that Dad was working at his age. Today was the stress test and they came out and said he did very well. Friday we see his primary care for a physical.
Friday is also my Uncle's funeral. It breaks my heart that the nursing home gave him covid and he couldn't survive it. Another relative with a broken bone...dying from getting a germ. Sad. My cousin asked if I wanted to look at his art supplies. I said yes and asked if I could have a painting.
I am hoping that things get quiet now. I'd like to hibernate for a bit ;-)
The boss sent out the 2023 vacation request forms. I am upset that I cant go on the beach house trip with the cousins. I was surprised at how upset I was when I had to NOT request the time. It's just to long to be away without Dad having any support at all. I will find something to do.
The boss asked me how my Dad was. I said he seems to be okay but I am having a hard time getting him to understand how sodium effects the heart failure and getting him to eat healthy. It's stressful. She said to let him do what he wants. I said but he could die. She said So..we all die. I was offended by that. I know what she means... but I had to let my Mother die. Im not over that. If she wasn't the boss I would have continued the conversation...but I was upset and it would not have gotten me anywhere.
Some of my experiments in low sodium have been on the fail side. Its hard as I am cooking food I don't want to eat but Im too tired to cook someone thing else. I think I need to find some stews or make spaghetti on days that I work at the office as I am just not into cooking when I come in.
This week is 3 doctor appointments. Monday was the pacemaker doc. He said Dad was good and was surprised that Dad was working at his age. Today was the stress test and they came out and said he did very well. Friday we see his primary care for a physical.
Friday is also my Uncle's funeral. It breaks my heart that the nursing home gave him covid and he couldn't survive it. Another relative with a broken bone...dying from getting a germ. Sad. My cousin asked if I wanted to look at his art supplies. I said yes and asked if I could have a painting.
I am hoping that things get quiet now. I'd like to hibernate for a bit ;-)
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Date: 2023-01-11 09:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-12 01:12 am (UTC)Hugs, Helen
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Date: 2023-01-12 01:13 am (UTC)You should have asked her if she had heart disease, would she keep eating tons of salt? UGH...
I haven't really even thought about vacation times for the year, other then the usual times I ask for.
That's great news that you keep getting good news from the doctors. :)
Get some rest.
I know that exhausted feeling, and still dealing with it. :(
HUGS, Jon
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Date: 2023-01-12 05:55 pm (UTC)"Well, I suppose he's doing OK but without that vacation time I requested he's going to be left unsupported and may suffer badly because I'm not there to help him"
And so what if you go to the cousin's beach excursion, you're on vacation, you do what the fuck you want it's Vacation
Also also "we all die". Yeah, class act right there. Class. Act.
I also know what your boss means but she needs to learn some tact.
She's also not your Dad's doctor so she needs to stuff it with her expert medical advice.
There I said it.
Achem, so anyway.
I feel for you. I'm sorry the low-sodium diet isn't working. I can only imagine the difficulties I'll be facing contending with that when/if I get up to my 70-80s. I'm already noticing some foods cause me specific problems, and I'm only mid 40s :P
Also sorry to hear about the other relatives. I still remember and still tinge a bit, during the height of the Pandemic when the internet exphurts were matter-of-factly spouting off about how the Common Cold or Regular Flu kills hundreds/thousands of elderly/immunocompromised people every year so what's the big deal. And yeah, there's an ounce of truth to that, that (you're) exposed to all sorts of shit in hospitals and nursing homes and yes chances are good it's a common disease that'll end most of us.
But for fuck's sake, these internet asshole "physicians" needed to learn some manners and empathy. And how fucking difficult is it to learn and abide by some simple, basic hygiene and protective protocol.
although nice deal with the painting request, can't complain about free supplies!
>hugs<
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Date: 2023-01-15 03:19 pm (UTC)I'm so sorry, I know you were really looking forward to that trip. =(
And I hate to say it, but you cannot control your father. If he wants to make bad choices, he's going to make bad choices. And sometimes it's a quality of life choice. If he'd rather eat delicious food and have a shorter life, that may be a better life in his mind. I've had some horrible low-sodium foods, I might make the same choices.
Its hard as I am cooking food I don't want to eat
And if you don't want to eat it, why do you think your dad wants to eat it? Just sayin.
He said Dad was good and was surprised that Dad was working at his age.
I agree, if he could afford it, dad should have retired years ago. Glad to hear that his doctor appointments went well.
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Date: 2023-01-15 04:09 pm (UTC)The thing isn't that he cheats once or twice a week. Everyone expects that. It's that the cousins go way over board. He went out with them 5 days this week and ate 9 meals from pizza places. 3 of them have had gastric bypass surgery and have gone back to their pre surgery weight/health.
Home cooked foods are fine. He can even have ice cream sundaes. A Thanksgiving feast is fine too. Its just they are doing pizza, Chinese Take out, subs. No veggies. Not even yummy restaurant food...and I love yummy restaurant food. I give up.
For me and Im going back to roasted chicken and pork and just fresh veg. Potatoes are good too.
I just have to get one of the apartments ready to rent when things go south.
As for the trip... I know it would have been 3 weeks of yelling and bickering... so it is probably for the best. Ill plan a trip later when there is someone I can get to him if there's an emergency. I want a few days offline by the sea. I just didnt want to be alone. I'll plan something.
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Date: 2023-01-16 02:35 am (UTC)Yikes! I thought maybe he was only over there on Sundays. Eating out every day of the week is bad for you even if you haven't had heart surgery. OK, I would have fussed at him too.