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ravena_kadeToday started out stressed.
Dad was going to breakfast so I have to take his vitals early. This time of day is giving me anxiety that is turning painful. We cant not do it, but the anxiety it is causing is becoming an issue. I don't know about meds because even on a medication I will see bad numbers...but do I not want to care about them? I don't know.
Today his blood pressure was good. His pulse said 92 at first and I recorded it. Then it fell to 80 then 55 then 40... but he was okay. Then the pulse machine said err then 92 then something else. I became anxious because he does have afib... he is upset and believes that the machine is wrong. I am not sure if he should go out. He is mad at me. Then my rational brain kicks in and I know he has a pacemaker and a defibrillator in his chest. If his readings were jumping like that the defibrillator should start to shock him. Usually it is the BP that is weird. These machines are not as accurate as a good human, but it is what I have. We dont go to a doc until Jan 6th.
Dad goes to breakfast with the cousins and will come home if he feels weird. I really cant stop him from doing anything. I can get mad. Beyond that all I can do is leave. I don't want to do that because the last time I did I had to call 911 and bring him back to the hospital. He is now at the cousins. They were having a Christmas party with their Dad's side of the family. They asked Dad to come just to get him out of the house. Staying at home for 2 months is not good for his mental health. I had to be blunt and tell him that it would really wreck their Christmas party if he died at it. He should think of other people.
3 hours later I get a call from the hospital people monitoring the vital signs via the internet. Then I have to explain everything all over again. They always call when I am doing something else. They alway ask Is he drinking water? Yes. Does he feel fine? Okay. I ask what should we do? They tell me nothing. I asked for new machinery. I used the pulse machine on me and it said my oxygen level was at 60% and my hear rate was 130... I believe the heart rate because I was anxious...but I am breathing fine. I told the nurse that he had a pacemaker and defibrillator and she agreed that it should be
In a couple weeks he should be done with teh visiting nurses and their equipment. That is if he gets the okay to drive. He is strong and he is competent so I think he can drive. I know he will feel better driving. I may be scared, but I know I cant keep him in a cage. He is not ready to be retired at home. Sigh.
Dad was going to breakfast so I have to take his vitals early. This time of day is giving me anxiety that is turning painful. We cant not do it, but the anxiety it is causing is becoming an issue. I don't know about meds because even on a medication I will see bad numbers...but do I not want to care about them? I don't know.
Today his blood pressure was good. His pulse said 92 at first and I recorded it. Then it fell to 80 then 55 then 40... but he was okay. Then the pulse machine said err then 92 then something else. I became anxious because he does have afib... he is upset and believes that the machine is wrong. I am not sure if he should go out. He is mad at me. Then my rational brain kicks in and I know he has a pacemaker and a defibrillator in his chest. If his readings were jumping like that the defibrillator should start to shock him. Usually it is the BP that is weird. These machines are not as accurate as a good human, but it is what I have. We dont go to a doc until Jan 6th.
Dad goes to breakfast with the cousins and will come home if he feels weird. I really cant stop him from doing anything. I can get mad. Beyond that all I can do is leave. I don't want to do that because the last time I did I had to call 911 and bring him back to the hospital. He is now at the cousins. They were having a Christmas party with their Dad's side of the family. They asked Dad to come just to get him out of the house. Staying at home for 2 months is not good for his mental health. I had to be blunt and tell him that it would really wreck their Christmas party if he died at it. He should think of other people.
3 hours later I get a call from the hospital people monitoring the vital signs via the internet. Then I have to explain everything all over again. They always call when I am doing something else. They alway ask Is he drinking water? Yes. Does he feel fine? Okay. I ask what should we do? They tell me nothing. I asked for new machinery. I used the pulse machine on me and it said my oxygen level was at 60% and my hear rate was 130... I believe the heart rate because I was anxious...but I am breathing fine. I told the nurse that he had a pacemaker and defibrillator and she agreed that it should be
In a couple weeks he should be done with teh visiting nurses and their equipment. That is if he gets the okay to drive. He is strong and he is competent so I think he can drive. I know he will feel better driving. I may be scared, but I know I cant keep him in a cage. He is not ready to be retired at home. Sigh.
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Date: 2022-12-18 12:28 am (UTC)Please know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers.
HUGS, Jon
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Date: 2022-12-18 02:55 am (UTC)