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Apr. 5th, 2022 08:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeToday was my first tension headache in 2 years.
It didn't come from actually being back. People were friendly. The space worked out better than I thought. The systems speed was fabulous. There were bagels for breakfast The Boston Boss was only snarky to me once and was rather nice the rest of the day. My commute was good. 7 minutes going in. Going home took 45 minutes, but the walk will do me good and will get faster once I get back into shape.
The new vice president and director both came by to meet everyone. They seem nice. They recognized that it would be hard getting used to being in the office.
The issue is something that my Team Leader is throwing at me for when she is out Friday. I like her a lot, but her training style, or lack of training style, on complex things makes me scream. And that is where the headache stems from. Sadly over the last 2 years of the job I was forced into and is not my strength has upset me and frustrated me enough that I will just scream. Yeah... thats a bit of mental illness. Well...no screaming today... no release of tension...
I spent 3.5 hours on this account with no forward progress and no more understanding. Someone sitting close to me could tell I was upset even with my mask on and offered to help. I thought that was very nice. I showed him the work and all he could do is empathize, agreeing that the notes were shit, and that without an understanding of the product there was no way I could prove the movements of the account. The Team Leader telling me to just play with it (from her home in Pennsylvania) doesn't work if you don't know what you are doing wrong. I had to redo the process 6 times and it was still wrong...but she had no time to train and the other person who knows it is to busy to talk to me and no one in Boston Understands it at all. What I need is for someone just to sit and show me... but they are not here. I ended up outside crying in the parking lot as I was so frustrated.
When I came home there were flowers on my door step that really helped my mood.. Thank youmalterre. They are beautiful.
All I can say is that if the rest of the work the Team lead wants to show me is more of the same crap, I am just going to quit after my October vacation time and work at a market.
It didn't come from actually being back. People were friendly. The space worked out better than I thought. The systems speed was fabulous. There were bagels for breakfast The Boston Boss was only snarky to me once and was rather nice the rest of the day. My commute was good. 7 minutes going in. Going home took 45 minutes, but the walk will do me good and will get faster once I get back into shape.
The new vice president and director both came by to meet everyone. They seem nice. They recognized that it would be hard getting used to being in the office.
The issue is something that my Team Leader is throwing at me for when she is out Friday. I like her a lot, but her training style, or lack of training style, on complex things makes me scream. And that is where the headache stems from. Sadly over the last 2 years of the job I was forced into and is not my strength has upset me and frustrated me enough that I will just scream. Yeah... thats a bit of mental illness. Well...no screaming today... no release of tension...
I spent 3.5 hours on this account with no forward progress and no more understanding. Someone sitting close to me could tell I was upset even with my mask on and offered to help. I thought that was very nice. I showed him the work and all he could do is empathize, agreeing that the notes were shit, and that without an understanding of the product there was no way I could prove the movements of the account. The Team Leader telling me to just play with it (from her home in Pennsylvania) doesn't work if you don't know what you are doing wrong. I had to redo the process 6 times and it was still wrong...but she had no time to train and the other person who knows it is to busy to talk to me and no one in Boston Understands it at all. What I need is for someone just to sit and show me... but they are not here. I ended up outside crying in the parking lot as I was so frustrated.
When I came home there were flowers on my door step that really helped my mood.. Thank you
malterre. They are beautiful. All I can say is that if the rest of the work the Team lead wants to show me is more of the same crap, I am just going to quit after my October vacation time and work at a market.
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