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May. 5th, 2020 12:52 pmI'm down.
The situation is triggering like when I was unemployed, except when I was unemployed the first year
The weekly unemployment was more than I make now.
The healthcare I had the first 2 years (COBRA) was better than what I have now... so I could actually go to a doctor.
Ma was alive.. a pain in my butt some days, but alive, could see, and cooked for herself and fed Dad most days.
When I spent 8 hours at the computer doing job applications I at least still had the hope of getting into the field I wanted (It took 2 years before I was told I was the wrong demographic for the job). Not like my current work... it's like shoveling out a stable...except with a spoon and not a shovel.
I could get on a train and go someplace that made me feel better and connected.
The situation is triggering like when I was unemployed, except when I was unemployed the first year
The weekly unemployment was more than I make now.
The healthcare I had the first 2 years (COBRA) was better than what I have now... so I could actually go to a doctor.
Ma was alive.. a pain in my butt some days, but alive, could see, and cooked for herself and fed Dad most days.
When I spent 8 hours at the computer doing job applications I at least still had the hope of getting into the field I wanted (It took 2 years before I was told I was the wrong demographic for the job). Not like my current work... it's like shoveling out a stable...except with a spoon and not a shovel.
I could get on a train and go someplace that made me feel better and connected.
