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May. 5th, 2020 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeI'm down.
The situation is triggering like when I was unemployed, except when I was unemployed the first year
The weekly unemployment was more than I make now.
The healthcare I had the first 2 years (COBRA) was better than what I have now... so I could actually go to a doctor.
Ma was alive.. a pain in my butt some days, but alive, could see, and cooked for herself and fed Dad most days.
When I spent 8 hours at the computer doing job applications I at least still had the hope of getting into the field I wanted (It took 2 years before I was told I was the wrong demographic for the job). Not like my current work... it's like shoveling out a stable...except with a spoon and not a shovel.
I could get on a train and go someplace that made me feel better and connected.
The situation is triggering like when I was unemployed, except when I was unemployed the first year
The weekly unemployment was more than I make now.
The healthcare I had the first 2 years (COBRA) was better than what I have now... so I could actually go to a doctor.
Ma was alive.. a pain in my butt some days, but alive, could see, and cooked for herself and fed Dad most days.
When I spent 8 hours at the computer doing job applications I at least still had the hope of getting into the field I wanted (It took 2 years before I was told I was the wrong demographic for the job). Not like my current work... it's like shoveling out a stable...except with a spoon and not a shovel.
I could get on a train and go someplace that made me feel better and connected.
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Date: 2020-05-05 05:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-05 06:33 pm (UTC)I've had a couple of wobbles this past week. I really want to go out but of course I wouldn't be that reckless, not until we are told we can go a little further afield. I still won't mix at all but I can get in the car and drive somewhere pretty and remote.
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Date: 2020-05-06 12:28 am (UTC)Time to turn Frankie into an Adventure Kitty! How cute would he look in a little orange harness and lead?
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Date: 2020-05-06 06:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-06 08:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-05-06 11:45 pm (UTC)you're not alone; a lot of people are getting triggered by this. i'm certainly feeling it - i had another client call me today to check in, and i hated telling her that things were OK (she's genuinely concerned about Mom and i) but that i didn't know when i'll reopen.
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Date: 2020-05-07 02:41 am (UTC)