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Sep. 24th, 2020 08:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadeToday I felt stressed in such a way that brought back an old demon.
I finished my job function by 8:30AM, but every time I went into another room I was pinged on the work instant messenger...but not for anything important.
The boss called, while I was in the bathroom, to ask if I was available for a meeting. Sure. It didn't get scheduled until 20 minutes before we leave for the day and ran over by 35 minutes. The meeting was hard as the person who set it up didn't want to talk. Many times my boss had to say"Victor, are you there? Victor, are you listening?
I needed the sea because if the way I was feeling. I walked the north end of the beach at my house. There were fish, and tiny hermit crabs. Hurricane Teddy really stirred up the bay so there was a lot more shells and sea weed in the rack line There were many more crab carapaces...small ones maybe 3 inches across. Today their colors caught my attention. Some were a black green, some where a red, some in between. I wonder what causes the color difference since they are all the same species, and I assume eating the same thing in the bay.
Trying to think an art project with some of the crab shells. I think I can use a spray varnish on them and get the "wet" color back. I wonder if people would think that was weird?
Scheduling some visit time. Do it now because I know once winter hits I will end up a hermit. Need to get some activities in place for that as being isolated isn't great for my head space... It brings back demons.
I finished my job function by 8:30AM, but every time I went into another room I was pinged on the work instant messenger...but not for anything important.
The boss called, while I was in the bathroom, to ask if I was available for a meeting. Sure. It didn't get scheduled until 20 minutes before we leave for the day and ran over by 35 minutes. The meeting was hard as the person who set it up didn't want to talk. Many times my boss had to say"Victor, are you there? Victor, are you listening?
I needed the sea because if the way I was feeling. I walked the north end of the beach at my house. There were fish, and tiny hermit crabs. Hurricane Teddy really stirred up the bay so there was a lot more shells and sea weed in the rack line There were many more crab carapaces...small ones maybe 3 inches across. Today their colors caught my attention. Some were a black green, some where a red, some in between. I wonder what causes the color difference since they are all the same species, and I assume eating the same thing in the bay.
Trying to think an art project with some of the crab shells. I think I can use a spray varnish on them and get the "wet" color back. I wonder if people would think that was weird?
Scheduling some visit time. Do it now because I know once winter hits I will end up a hermit. Need to get some activities in place for that as being isolated isn't great for my head space... It brings back demons.
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Date: 2020-09-25 10:41 am (UTC)i hope that you find space to paint more; you're bloody brilliant at it.
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Date: 2020-09-25 10:56 am (UTC)and thank you.
I am getting there to carve out the time.
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Date: 2020-09-26 10:17 pm (UTC)I hear you. :(
Every time I hear the incoming email chime my shoulders tense and my body's fight-or-flight mechanism goes into Fresh Hell mode. :(