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Aug. 6th, 2019 03:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravena_kadei still can't sleep.
I am exhausted by 9:30 PM by work and then the dinner ordeal with Dad and O go to bed only to wake up at 2 AM... I need 6 to 8 hours sleep and yet I can't sleep.
I wake up full of anxiety.
Why do my hands hurt. Why can't I get an answer. I need my hands. The medicine is doing NOTHING but making me nauseous. I cantata pain, but I need the swelling to go away. I waste all my hand energy at the crappy job. I can't hold my camera. I need to start lifting my ceramic molds and cleaning the greenware...if I have arthritis that will suck as clay and water make it worse... Things aren't getting done around the house as I "rest" them and dad inso help. There is no help. I could use some answers... but co pays for no advice are $40 and I get anxiety over scheduling appointments as I can't keep leaving work... and when i do schedule one that is the EXACT time they want to schedule something for Dad he acts like a baby when I have to take care of myself...
Today I have an appointment to see if the procedure I hand done last June worked and I am cancer cell free... I hope so as I am feeling that my job may be moved to another state and I will be let go... more anxiety. I know working about it dose o good, but not trying to prepare for it is not wise either.
I am exhausted by 9:30 PM by work and then the dinner ordeal with Dad and O go to bed only to wake up at 2 AM... I need 6 to 8 hours sleep and yet I can't sleep.
I wake up full of anxiety.
Why do my hands hurt. Why can't I get an answer. I need my hands. The medicine is doing NOTHING but making me nauseous. I cantata pain, but I need the swelling to go away. I waste all my hand energy at the crappy job. I can't hold my camera. I need to start lifting my ceramic molds and cleaning the greenware...if I have arthritis that will suck as clay and water make it worse... Things aren't getting done around the house as I "rest" them and dad inso help. There is no help. I could use some answers... but co pays for no advice are $40 and I get anxiety over scheduling appointments as I can't keep leaving work... and when i do schedule one that is the EXACT time they want to schedule something for Dad he acts like a baby when I have to take care of myself...
Today I have an appointment to see if the procedure I hand done last June worked and I am cancer cell free... I hope so as I am feeling that my job may be moved to another state and I will be let go... more anxiety. I know working about it dose o good, but not trying to prepare for it is not wise either.
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