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Today I could breathe and not be so frustrated that I would scream.cry.

I still worked an hour over, but the system connection was there.

If half of what the IT guy said yesterday was true, I should sign on as early as I can to get a VPN connection on it with no traffic on it...so to speak.

The lilacs are blooming. I may cut some and bring them in.

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Today really was a better day.

Thank goodness.


Been thinking about what I really want from a job.

I need the money I make now, or more. Less would kill me when Dad stops working. I have to be able to cover all the utility bills. Sigh.

I just want to be part of a team and not treated differently. Not be separate. I want to be included. I am a good team player and I know business operations.

I want to work a few days from at home. There are no Doctors appointments after 6 PM. No home repair comes to your house at night. I could work totally remotely if I was engaged with the team...but then I would need an outside activity straight after work. This pandemic lock down is gnawing away at my mental health. Dad and the cousins do not offer the interaction that I need.

I would like a boss that I could respect and would respect what I bring to a team. The Boston Boss does not respect me for a few reasons... some are not work related at all.


The problem is that most operations jobs require you to be in the building.

The other problem is that many places are leaving Boston so being able to get to a place may be difficult.