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Aug. 4th, 2019 07:02 pmFriday was a nice day with beading and lobster.
Saturday was confusing. I went to the birthday party, but I sat with the old aunts as none of the younger generation that I have known since I was 15 showed up. Sad as these old aunt (one is a mom of the Birthday person) took that generation everywhere while Mom worked 2 jobs and tried to keep their physically abusive Dad away from the, as kids. It's like the family dissolved in the last couple of years... once the aunts were no longer able to give them money... so sad. I felt like an alien observer. The strange thing was that there was absolutely nothing to drink but beer and tap water.
Today I wanted to go to Ipswich. There was a 25% off sale at a plant nursery up there and they finally opened up the clam flats so this is the first time the bar that I like had friend clams. The clams were excellent. I picked up some lovely plants that I will put in this week... I can no longer just sit and rest my hands. I have to get doing things. If its arthritis its the best thing to do. We stopped at a farm for fresh blue berries...an anti inflammatory... and I had ginger ice cream. Ginger is also an anti inflammatory
This week is going to be stressful. I have a doc appointment and Dad has to have another cortisone shot in his back. My boss is not going to like that. I need Dad's back to be DONE as the place we were referred to only gives him shot on Friday afternoons and with the trains not working it is taking me an hour to travel one train stop... it is causing stress. And if I don't go with him he won't go...and when I get stressed he starts complaining that he should be dead. Umm...with no life insurance that would benefit no one... and I hate passive aggressive crap.
For all the crap I can usually do okay...but I can't do okay and do this work thing. I need a different job or no job to be me... but what I do well will not get me a job with healthcare...a and office jobs are full of the type of terrible people I already work with. I can't figure out a plan B. And quitting work to go to school means I loose the house and then trade a mortgage for a college loan in liberal arts for a job that won't pay rent where I live never mind repay the loans...
Saturday was confusing. I went to the birthday party, but I sat with the old aunts as none of the younger generation that I have known since I was 15 showed up. Sad as these old aunt (one is a mom of the Birthday person) took that generation everywhere while Mom worked 2 jobs and tried to keep their physically abusive Dad away from the, as kids. It's like the family dissolved in the last couple of years... once the aunts were no longer able to give them money... so sad. I felt like an alien observer. The strange thing was that there was absolutely nothing to drink but beer and tap water.
Today I wanted to go to Ipswich. There was a 25% off sale at a plant nursery up there and they finally opened up the clam flats so this is the first time the bar that I like had friend clams. The clams were excellent. I picked up some lovely plants that I will put in this week... I can no longer just sit and rest my hands. I have to get doing things. If its arthritis its the best thing to do. We stopped at a farm for fresh blue berries...an anti inflammatory... and I had ginger ice cream. Ginger is also an anti inflammatory
This week is going to be stressful. I have a doc appointment and Dad has to have another cortisone shot in his back. My boss is not going to like that. I need Dad's back to be DONE as the place we were referred to only gives him shot on Friday afternoons and with the trains not working it is taking me an hour to travel one train stop... it is causing stress. And if I don't go with him he won't go...and when I get stressed he starts complaining that he should be dead. Umm...with no life insurance that would benefit no one... and I hate passive aggressive crap.
For all the crap I can usually do okay...but I can't do okay and do this work thing. I need a different job or no job to be me... but what I do well will not get me a job with healthcare...a and office jobs are full of the type of terrible people I already work with. I can't figure out a plan B. And quitting work to go to school means I loose the house and then trade a mortgage for a college loan in liberal arts for a job that won't pay rent where I live never mind repay the loans...
